Ongoing events..

Okies.. Soooo very much has gone on since I last actually WROTE something.. Mainly cause I didn't really have a computer of my own.. But now, the tide has changed!! I have access!! and as grr said.. The knowledge. It fills me! It.Is. NEAT! So.. Ya know.. been in Tucson.. BORED outa my mind since I've moved to this Beautiful place. Just working and trying to make sense of my life. Not many guys to fuck around with out hee, and Pendergrass(yes I still talk to that guy) well, he lives in Cali.. Which BLOWS!! but whateve.. hes gotta do what hes gotta do.The last time he was out here(july 4th) We rolled.. It was amazing and the sex was better.. Note that I said better and not amazing or super or fuck I gotta have it again.. It was just decent sex.. all over my house. To be honest, the sex was actually better when we WEREN'T rolling! Go figure right?!? So anyways.. we had a blast.. then back to Cali he took hisself. It was a fun time, and I'm glad he came out. But I was even more glad when he left. Weird huh? I mean, I love Pen to death.. But I don't think I would ever be happy actually being with him.. Unless he still lived in Cali.. One thing I do believe is that I can trust him enough to be faithful over long distances.. However.. I would never trust him enough to actually DO that sort of thing.I realize that I don't trust alot of people to do alot of things.. Like I was totally fine with him until he said that we should get married.. and then lughed it off.. No harm no foul on his end.. But that just makes my over active brain think, think, think.. I thought.. and I came to the conclusion that I could be totally happy with being married to someone who lived 6hours by car or 1 1/2 hours by plane away from me. That way I would only see them on weekends and holidays, and I would never get tired of them. Plus that would mean that we would have some UBER killer conversations. It would be nice if he lived in like Vegas or New Mexico, cause then I could go visit.. But Cali.. FUCK THAT! He would ALWAYS have to come visit me.. Cause I hate Cali!! With a fucking passion. I am a tad bit worried that july was a bad month.. Cause somehow..Even though I have and IUD and we used condoms( cause Goddess knows where he has been) I am LATE!But it could just be stress, so I'm not gonna entertain that particular direction of thinking until at least september.. But it should have most definately have come by now.. But We shall see how this all shakes out in the fucking meeting won't we.. Not to worry though, cause if shit gets hectic.. I've got it covered.. The bad thing is that that would be one thing that I would never be able to tell him.. He is my friend.. and a damn good one too! And he wants a squalling brat at some point in his life.. Ewwwwww.. But he thinks he is infertile, and I am more than willing to let him think that for as long as I can! But again.. I am being a little premature( the thought patterns of my big sexy brain!@) and I shall not worry. anywayz.. So I have found a new Dj to rock out to. His name is Dj TeeBee.. Great D 'n' B! But I still love my Dj Eros! My Dj Keoki. My Dj Icey! My Dj Leggo! Dj Swedish Egil.. God I love house, trance, drum n bass!! Oh yeah! We can't for get Dj Tiesto!!But he has gotten pretty mainstream with his music.. Check out ThePerfectMix.fm Good shit!! Okies, well I should probably go to sleep. Pen is asleep with a headache( he is such a fucking GIRL!) and well I guess I do have to like work and shit in the morning.. but its already like 1230am Whateve.. I will holla atcha later! DaNimAl