Daniel Katz

Such a sexy Jew. I want to do extreemly dirty things to him. But alas, I work with him. Mores the pity for me. How I could change his boring little world, would scare him. Mores the pity for him. He will never know. Saddness fills me at this thought.

Hurrah!!

Yeah.. so Why was so worried!! Not preggers!! by that guy!! The guy who as my wife says, looks like he has downs.. Go figure!! I think he is cute!! But I don't think it matters.. He is not for me.. He is for another more comparable person.. Here's hoping that she is a groovy chick that likes me also!! but one can only hope. I miss Casey.. and I miss David, and I just wanna Fool around with Dan.. But since that is not possible.. Booo!! I'm so fucking bored and lonely in Tucson.. I just want friends.. It doesn't have to be sex( but it would be nice) But just friends to hang out with.. away from my house.. So bored, and I see that I'm getting fat and outa shape.

Fuck,Fuck,FUCK!!

Ok. So the whole period thing has yet to shake itself out.. I'm totally serious people!! I'm starting to worry here!! Huh... I am NOT amused.. So scared.. but check it.. I'm not scared about being pregnant.. I'm scared about having to pay monies that I could use elsewhere.. like for speakers in my car, and a new stereo.. or a new pair of shoes!! FUCK!! No more sex for Me!! EVER!! Hopefully its just stress and false pretenses..This makes me sad.. I'm still not going t o thik about it until mid september.. cause it could have just been my lucky month and I just didn't get it.. I mean, I hjave cramps and bloating and my face is broken out like I'm about to start.. with the child, I was very serene and My skin looked awesone.. So I figure It was just my lucky month last month, and this month, it will be back with a VENGeNCE! I guess we shall see huh? Pluis theres that whole isssue of me having an IUD.. It work this fucking far.. why the fuck not now? So as I said.. I'm gonna chalk it up to being just lucky and stress.

I really should make it a point to have

Friends out here. But im not sure if its really something I want. I have friends, I want sex dammit!

Ongoing events..

Okies.. Soooo very much has gone on since I last actually WROTE something.. Mainly cause I didn't really have a computer of my own.. But now, the tide has changed!! I have access!! and as grr said.. The knowledge. It fills me! It.Is. NEAT! So.. Ya know.. been in Tucson.. BORED outa my mind since I've moved to this Beautiful place. Just working and trying to make sense of my life. Not many guys to fuck around with out hee, and Pendergrass(yes I still talk to that guy) well, he lives in Cali.. Which BLOWS!! but whateve.. hes gotta do what hes gotta do.The last time he was out here(july 4th) We rolled.. It was amazing and the sex was better.. Note that I said better and not amazing or super or fuck I gotta have it again.. It was just decent sex.. all over my house. To be honest, the sex was actually better when we WEREN'T rolling! Go figure right?!? So anyways.. we had a blast.. then back to Cali he took hisself. It was a fun time, and I'm glad he came out. But I was even more glad when he left. Weird huh? I mean, I love Pen to death.. But I don't think I would ever be happy actually being with him.. Unless he still lived in Cali.. One thing I do believe is that I can trust him enough to be faithful over long distances.. However.. I would never trust him enough to actually DO that sort of thing.I realize that I don't trust alot of people to do alot of things.. Like I was totally fine with him until he said that we should get married.. and then lughed it off.. No harm no foul on his end.. But that just makes my over active brain think, think, think.. I thought.. and I came to the conclusion that I could be totally happy with being married to someone who lived 6hours by car or 1 1/2 hours by plane away from me. That way I would only see them on weekends and holidays, and I would never get tired of them. Plus that would mean that we would have some UBER killer conversations. It would be nice if he lived in like Vegas or New Mexico, cause then I could go visit.. But Cali.. FUCK THAT! He would ALWAYS have to come visit me.. Cause I hate Cali!! With a fucking passion. I am a tad bit worried that july was a bad month.. Cause somehow..Even though I have and IUD and we used condoms( cause Goddess knows where he has been) I am LATE!But it could just be stress, so I'm not gonna entertain that particular direction of thinking until at least september.. But it should have most definately have come by now.. But We shall see how this all shakes out in the fucking meeting won't we.. Not to worry though, cause if shit gets hectic.. I've got it covered.. The bad thing is that that would be one thing that I would never be able to tell him.. He is my friend.. and a damn good one too! And he wants a squalling brat at some point in his life.. Ewwwwww.. But he thinks he is infertile, and I am more than willing to let him think that for as long as I can! But again.. I am being a little premature( the thought patterns of my big sexy brain!@) and I shall not worry. anywayz.. So I have found a new Dj to rock out to. His name is Dj TeeBee.. Great D 'n' B! But I still love my Dj Eros! My Dj Keoki. My Dj Icey! My Dj Leggo! Dj Swedish Egil.. God I love house, trance, drum n bass!! Oh yeah! We can't for get Dj Tiesto!!But he has gotten pretty mainstream with his music.. Check out ThePerfectMix.fm Good shit!! Okies, well I should probably go to sleep. Pen is asleep with a headache( he is such a fucking GIRL!) and well I guess I do have to like work and shit in the morning.. but its already like 1230am Whateve.. I will holla atcha later! DaNimAl

I see all that the world has to offer

In his eyes.

Pendergrass

He actually looks attractive io this picture..maybe its the hair. In that case, my heart is totally fucked!

FWD: ha ha love ya

I ordered you a bouquet to brighten your day. I'm guessing these are your favorites. LOL! s0 pik 1

I want someone who makes me feel..

Beautiful. Inside and Out! He is out there, and he will find me. Our hearts have been twined 2gether through destiny and the relentless pursuit of perfection in another person. Whatever that may be.