Diabolus fecit, ut id facerem- to David

Credo Fatum nos coegisse! Vos amo, Vos amo
Vivere, Amare, Deiscere- living,loving and learning

Num mihi dolebit hoc?- it won't hurt a bit(unless of course I want it to.)

Aut id devorabis amabisque, aut cras prandebis- you will eat it and like it, or you will have it for breakfast tomorrow.

merda

If you are reading this, you are curious..

The title means ' I think fate brought us together. iloveyou, iloveyou'

Diabolus fecit, ut id facerem- The devil made me do it..

All these thing remind me of you.. your face, your smile, your laugh, even that time you yelled at my friend and I had no choice but to go with her, no matter how much I wanted to stay with you! That display of emotion effectively earned you a place in my heart forever.I look back and realize that that was the 1st and last time that you have ever shown some sort of emotion.. You guard them close my lord, yes you do.. as if you are not the deeper subject of my affections.. Maybe that is why i held out so long, in hopes of seeing more.. Then you brought me back into your reach when I was so far out, you knew you would forget me.. Forgive me for thinking that a sign that you wanted me next to you for all time.. It was/is my own womanly weakness that keeps my heart beating in hopes for you to but aknowledge me. Some sign, a slight nod in my direction and I would throw down all my weapons and become yours and only yours.. in only the way that you could make me yours! Does my submissiveness scare you? does my totall and utter commitment to you shaKE you to your core? do you feel as if you don't deserve my love and my trust and my obesiance? My lord, if only you could see your great self through the eyes that I look threw.. I see a great man, a handsome man a strong man capable of great things!! how could you not see the same?!!? I would love you with a mothers love, a sisters love, a brothers love, a fathers love a whores love, a daughters love, a sons love, a vicars love, any kind of love at all, if you would but let me! Were you to tell me that I was too bold, I would become meek, just for you! Were you to tell me I was too shrew, I would affect a different tone, just for you! Were you to tell me I was to fat, to thin, too tall, too short, too needy, too independent.. too much of anything you DID NOT want me to be, I would change, JUST for YOU! Why do you shun my love? why treat me like i AM lower than your lowliest of low enemies? Why do you ignore my pleas of mercy? of tendre on your part? Mi Lord I have loved you since the begining and I will undoubtedly love you til the end of my days, and for the rest of the long night ahead.. I have no way of putting it mildly.. for my love for you burns like a million suns!! It sounds crazy, but that is how the your absence of your presence makes me! insane with guilt, and remorse and pain, and anger and regrett.. How is it that I can feel thusly toward you, and yet, you can walk by me, and not even see me, feel me, hear me, touch me? O cruelest of cruel fates has thrown my lot in with yours.. and yet, you don't even care enough to tell me how much,YOUR JUST NOT INTO ME!