I think I figured it out..

So BB decided that after taking a hiatus from reading my blogs, that he would start again..apparently he missed a lot of important information while he was on hiatus.. But thats his own fault..Anyways.. after some careful thought, I figured that the best way to just leave him alone, is to just start fucking another guy.. So now, I have the option of rushing it with sean, or there is this other guy shawn that one of my clear girls thinks would be right up my alley.. Then there is Jeremy( my future husband) and I'm sure I could just start fucking a couple of different people to get my mind off him.. But I'm not that type of girl.. It will probably just end up being one of the shawns.. I guess I could start fucking brian again, but why do that to myself? Plus I think i just think these things, just because I'm angry at myself for getting a little to attatched to BB.. He was just supposed to be a fuck buddy, the rebound guy for Mr.Cuddlepants, not anything necessary to my life( except for his actual friendship).. And he could still be that way.. I just gotta man-up and stop being so fucking lazy and find someone else to fuck.. So Starting saturday.. Thats my goal.. Saturday, I have a date with sean and then, if things don't work out, I will be headed to the other shawns..I'm easy.. No need to get all liquored up in shit to do it.. I'm on a fucking mission.. Hell the guy could be a scrub.. Not looking for anyone special, just a distraction.. But we shall see.. Gotta figure out how this whole period thing is gonna work out.. My period is like finding out I was with child.. I kinda figured that i was, But It was still a surprise.. So tonight on my way home from work, some dumb cunt cut me off trying to go from the 101 to the 60.. Me being the road rage driver that I am, Was incredibly pissed off. especially since she had ample room to just slow the fuck down and get behind me, instead of speeding up to get in front of me with a gynormous suv in the space that my little mazda wouldn't even fit into.. Needless to say, I had to slam on my brakes( did I mention that there was a FUCKTON of room behind me!) Just cause she HAD to get in.. To do what.. to go 60mi/ hr on the fucking FREEWAY when the speed limit is 65!!! Oh yeah did I mention that there was NOBODY FUCKING BEHIND ME when this cunt did this? So I followed her ass.. I followed her all the way out to right about apache junction before she FInally pulled over.. So I got out, and told her how disappointed i was in her driving by banging on her window and telling her to get the FUCK out the car.. She felt like Wonder woman when she cut me off, where was all her fucking gusto now? I told her that she was lucky that I didn't have a gun, or else I would have blown her fucking brains out!! Hell I did indeed have a nigga moment or as dave chappelle said I kept it real.. Thankfully It didn't go too wrong.. I even backed out so that the Bitch couldn't see my licsence plate.. I told her that is she was going to continue to drive like a retarded whore trying to give a blow job and drive at the same time, i could make it happen for her.. But she would have to get out of the car.. so of course she looked all scared and then dialed 911.. but i told her, unless she was going to tell them the reason WHY she got followed, then to just hang up the phone and take her ass whoopin like a real woman should.. Of course she declined.. Finally I left and now I'm home.. Irritated at myself and at that fucking whore for wasting my gas because she was impatient to go NO FUCKING WHERE.. LAme!! Plus BB didn't call or leave a msg of any kind to let me know what he thought of the blogs.. i guess It is an awful lot to take in.. But actions speak louder than words..He is probably out doing what he loves most in this world anyways.. (hanging with YOUNG ass kids) Eating pizza and drinking fucking sugar free red bulls, while they try to come up with new ways to bust their skulls to the white meat.. FUCK THEM ALL!! I'm going to bed.