LONG TIME: LOOOOONG TIME..

sO i ASKED FOR THE DAY OF AND THE MONDAY AFTER MY B-DAY OFF.. wHY? SO THAT i COULD I GUESS GO SEE THE CHILD.. I FIGURE THAT IF I WORK MY ASS OFF FOR DECEMBER, AND JANUARY, THEN i WILL BE ABLE TO AFFORD TO RENT A VEHICLE AND A HOTEL ROOM OUT IN COLORADO.. BUT WE SHALL SEE.. i THINK THAT ALL THIS TIME AT WORK IS STARTING TO GET TO ME.. LIKE ALL KINDS.. CANT SEEM TO CONCENTRATE WHILST I'M HERE.. BB CALLED ME LAST NIGHT.. AND SINCE I DIDN'T ANSWER, HE TEXED ME.. I DIDN'T RESPOND BACK.. I KEEP HOPING THAT IT WILL WORK OUT BETWEEN THE BOTH OF US.. I WANT HIM TO ASSERT HIMSELF AND TAKE ME IF HE WANTS ME.. BUT SINCE THATS NOT WHAT HE IS ABOOT, I FIGURE HE DOESN'T DESERVE ME..MY ONLY HOPE IS THAT BY MY B-DAY, SEAN AND I WILL BE A LITTLE CLOSER TO EACH OTHER AND HE WILL GO WITH ME TO COLORADO TO SEE THE CHILD AND THAT WAY I CAN SHOW HIM OFF TO CASEYS' FAMILY.. IT WOULD BE NICE TO BE ABLE TO DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT.. BUT WE SHALL SEE.. I COULDN'T REALLY SHOW BB OFF TO CASEYS' FAMILY, CAUSE CASEY WOULDN'T BELIEVE THAT I COULD BE WITH SUCH AN INTROVERT, AND ACTUALLY BE HAPPY.. BUT I GUESS IT SHOULDN'T BE ABOUT WHAT OTHERS THINK.. HOWEVER, THE LONGER THAT THIS DRAGS ON, THE MORE I SEE THINGS THAT I JUST DONT HAVE THE TIME OR THE PATIENCE TO CHANGE.. SO I WILL LET HIM GO.. I THINK I HAve TRAINED HIM WELL ENOUGHT TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO HAS LOWER STANDARDS THAN I. OKIES.. WELL BACK TO WORK IT IS MY FRIENDS.. BACK TO WORK IT IS!