the 1st is never the best

ok.. so this is the 1st post of many posts to come.. i realized that I needed another place to blog, that i could get to whilst I am at work.. This would be that illustrious place. usually I post all my blogs on 2 very different, but extremely similar places.. MySpace.. however because most of my readers tend to be the people I write about( and since they are almost always doing something stupid) and i don't like to be yelled at.. unless I'm having rough 'furikuri', i thought that it would be smart to start a blog elsewhere.. Ususally I try to maintain to my 'peeps' that my blogs are only thoughts and feelings that i have and that if they don't like something that i've written, then they shouldn't read them.. Fat chance of them taking my advice.. as a matter of fact i had to leave my other living situation because my 'roomy' was pissed off that I called her fat.. well i made it abundantly clear that I was only agreeing with her, cause she called herself fat 1st.. and then tried to fit into my clothes.. that C*nt had the nerve to borrow my thermal shirt and then B*tch about the fact that it was too small.. she actuall vocalized that we were gonna have to stretch out my clothes sothat she could fit into them.. I almost had a stroke!! I Bought my clothes to fit MY body, not hers.. and I will be 'vaschnookemed' if I spend money on clothing that doesn't fit me 'Just-in-case' one of my "peeps" decides that they want to borrow it.. From what i have learned through-out my 26yrs on this wretched earth, 1. you never let your friends borrow anything clothing wise that you are going to want back 2. NEVER, NEVER, NEVER ! BECOME FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE WHO CAN'T ACCEPT YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE.. 3. great sex is hard to find, so when you find it, kill the person immediatelyif they try to leave you.. that way you ALWAYS know that they aren't giving it good to anybody else!.. 4. never have kids..NEVER!! they are the reason why our society is in decline now! 5. never be afraid to speak your mind.. i used to say that this particular # is within reason, then I figured out that you could go at any point in time, if you always say what you mean and mean what you say, you will have no regrets! I think that Paris Hilton said it best..'Tell people whatever they want to hear, and then do whatever you want anyways.' I figure that way, when you have to explain it later, you just tell them that your plan was bettr, even if it wasn't.. 6. be a selfish as possible through out your whole life.. cause nomatter what others say,think,do, or feel about you, they will NEVER care as much about you as you do about yourself.. 7. hate your life.. if you hate your life, you will do 1 of 2 things, either waste it, or make it.. I actually choose to do the 3rd option, which is to kill myself at the age of 30yr.. i figured that if i hadn't done anything with my life by then, then I wasn't gonna be able to do anything with it after.. plus once you turn 30yrs, it all goes down-hill from there anyways.. the way my life is looking, i will be dead by my 30th b-day.. 8. Don't knock something unil you've tried it(except for having kids ..thats just as bad as it seems).. you can't say that something is not your style until you actually have had a chance to try it out.. its like anal sex for guys.. they are so quick to blowby that whole idea, caUSE THEY think its gay.. its not if a girl is doing it to you, and its not if you do it to yourself.. plus, you get a better 'O' by taking it that way than regularly.. 9. Smoke pot.. even if it makes you feel horrible, just do it! it kills off all the slow moving brain cells, and actually makes you smarter.. it even relaxes most people.. NICE!.. 10. These rules are to be followed only if you want to.. the main purpose is to live your life for you.. the bonus is that if you don't have kids,(wretched little monsters!) then you won't have to worry about feeling as if you have to live for anyone other than yourself.. its like getting close to people.. you only let them see about 65% of who you really are.. some people are even allowed to see 80%.. but always keep the rest for yourself.. when you become omnipocent like myself.. they won't even notice that your not showing all your skillz.. they will just take you at face value! which makes it soooooo much easier to screw them over.. hehehe

but those are my rules tolive by.. i have found that when i follow them, everything is super, when i disregaurd them, i end up hurt, confused, angry and suicidal.. I guess I will start this blog by telling you a little about myself.. i am classified as 'african american', but when i look in the mirror, I see blond hair and blue eyes... ALONG WITH beautifully tanned skin.. Yeah, I know i'm a little delusional, but it takes a little delusion to survive in this world.. just a little.. By the way, did I tell you how much I hate being an adult? it sucks soooooooooooo much, that well, it sucks! I also have a small child, but instead of going through the motions, and killing her later on in life, I decided to becaome a dead beat mom.. she lives with her father in colorado and I live in the great state of AZ.. I know, Iknow.. i should never have had her if i didn't want to take care of her right? well, all my life after several attempts of trying to concieve with a previous personage(ex fiance) and the doctors telling me that i would never be able to carry full term kinda gave me the inspiration of not getting to attatched everytime I got knocked up.. But this one stayed put where she was at.. so i hooked up with her father who was at the time one of my bestest best friends(until she was born) and I found out that irregaurdless of what i want, unless i got it for myself or demanded it from others, i would never get anything for myself once she was born.. from the moment i told him, it was ALWAYS about the bain of my exhistence..(from here on known as Ari).. whilst she was still inside my body, i got what I wanted when I wanted it.. but as soon as she came out, he stopped thinking about me and i had really bad postpartum depression.. its cause i realized that my life would now be centered around this child that does nothing and would probably grow up to be a fat whore.. so we went through the motions of making nice, until neither of us could stand it anymore and then we went our separate ways.. I felt that if she had been a boy, then I would have given a damn, but since she was a stupid chic, i could careless.. he took the cj=hild(like I wanted her anyways) and I took my newly aquired thought process of what I wanted in life(which was F-U-N) and went aboot our business.. I WILL SAy thatshe is extreemly cute, and will probably remain that way until she gets fat like the rest of his family.. I don't know what it is about people who like fat girls, but eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwww!! that is my worst fear in life is to get fat! I don't think that there is anything worse than furikuring a fat person.. but to each his own.. okies, this is all I'm gonna write for now, cause i would like to get somekind of work done i guess.. i looooove my job, but i'm thinking that theymay be firing me soon.. i think its cause i'm such a wierdo.. but thats for another blog... -danielleM(Danimal)