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SO i GOT MY STUFF BACK FROM THE GUY FORMALLY KNOW AS DAVID(IF THAT IS HIS REAL NAME).. i KINDA FELT BAD, HAVING TO MEET HIM..BUT ONLY BECAUSE I KNEW THAT I WASN'T GOING TO BE VERY CORDIAL TOWARD HIM...I MEAN I ACTUALLY FEEL KINDA BAD FOR HIM CAUSE IF HE COULDN'T BE UP FRONT AND HONEST ABOUT WHO HE IS WITH ME, THEN ITS GONNA BE PRETTY HARD FOR HIM TO DO THAT WITH ANYBODY.. OR MAYBE I JUST INTIMIDATE HIM.. I DO TEND TO DO THAT TO PEOPLE.. BUT IRREGAURDLESS, HE DID COME THROUGH WITH THE MUSIC.. HOWEVER, I'M NOT SURE IF I SHOULD READ ANYTHING INTO THE SONGS THAT HE PUT ON THE CD i'M GONNA CALL 'PRETTY MUCH PUNK'.. THE FIRST SONG IS CALLED(I THINK) 'A LOVE SONG FOR YOU'.. AND THERE ARE OTHER VARIOUS SONGS THAT I REALLY ENJOY ON THE CD.. I KINDA THOUGHT THAT HE WOULD PUT SOME PRINCE ON THE CD, BUT MAYBE I'M NOT SPECIAL ENOUGH ANYMORE FOR PRINCE.. IDK.. BUT IT WAS LIKE HE WAS LAUGHING AT ME WHILE WHEN I PULLED UP, CAUSE I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO LOOK AT HIM.. I DIDN'T EVEN GET OUT OF MY CAR.. I PULLED INTO THE SPOTY NEXT TO HIM, AND THEN SLID INTO MY PASSENGERS SEAT AND TOOK MY STUFF OUT THE WINDOW, I THINK AT 1ST HE WAS KINDA LOOKING OR THINKING LIKE IT WAS GOING TO BE SOME KIND OF AMIABLE EXCHANGE.. BUT WELL.. I CAN'T BE OVERLY NICE TO SOMEONE WHO PRETTY MUCH LIED TO ME FOR ALMOST A YEAR.. PLUS, WHATS THE POINT, I'LL NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN ANYWAYS.. AS I LEFT THE PRKINGLOT I WAS ALREADY DELETING HIS # AND HIS TEXT MSGS FROM MY PHONE.. CLEAN BREAK, NO LOOKING BACK.. BUT I DO WONDER IF HE WILL GET DRUNK AND TRY TO CALL ME ONE NIGHT.. IT WOULDN'T MATTER CAUSE I WOULDN'T ANSWER MY PHONE ANYWAYS..CAUSE I DON'T ANSWER UNKNOWN NUMBERS.. LEAVE A MSG AT THE TONE.. beeeeeeeep!! LOL!! BUT I'M STILL SORTA HURT AND CONFUSED(OBVIOUSLY) .. BUT I WILL SOLDIER ON. AGAIN, I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON.. IF IT SEEMS TO GOOD TO BE TRUE, IT USUALLY IS.. ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO GUYS.. AHHH WELL.. I LEFT A MSG FOR HIM ON HIS MYSPACE TODAY, I READ THAT SALTER TOLD HIM TO MOVE TO BROOKLYN..I SIMPLY WROTE THAT HE SHOULD DO JUST THAT.. I ALREADY KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN.. HE SWEARS UP AND DOWN THAT HE LUVS THE NIG*ER GIRLS, BUT HE WILL END UP WITH HER.. CAUSE SHE HAS KNOWN HIM LONGER, AND KNOWS EXACTLY HOW TO PUSH HIS BUTTONS.. PLUS, EVENTUALLY HE WILL GET TIRED OF BEING A LONELY LOSER AND JUST END UP WITH THE FAT WHITE CHIC THAT HE HAS KNOWN SINCE HIGHSCHOOL.. I KNOW I SOUND A LITTLE BITTER, BUT ITS ONLY BECAUSE I TOLD HIM THAT THIS IS WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO HIM, I KNEW IT WOULDN'T WORK OUT BETWEEN US BECAUSE OF THIS, BUT I STILL TREATED IT LIKE SOMETHING WAS GOING TO ACTUALLY HAPPEN.. MAYBE HE WILL LOOK BACK WITH FOND MEMORIES OF ME, AND IT WOULD BE COOL TO BE THE PERSON HE THINKS OF WHEN HE JERKS OFF.. I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT OUTSIDE OF DREAMING OF HIM DOUBLING UP WITH BRIAN( I LOVE YOU BRIAN!!) I DON'T REALLY DREAM OF HIM.. OK THERE WAS THAT ONE TIME i HAD THAT ONE REALLY DIRTY DREAM THAT I TURNED INTO A SHORT STORY, BUT I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHAT THE GUY LOOKED LIKE, I JUST KNEW THAT THE GUY HAD AWESOME, INTENSE BLUE EYES.. BUT THAT COULD BE EITHER DAVID, BRIAN, OR HELL, EVEN JEREMY!! I GUESS WE WILL NEVER KNOW.. BUT NOW THAT ALL THE BULLS*IT WITH DAVID IS DONE, I REALLY AM STARTING TO WONDER WAHT IT WOULD BE LIKE FOR JEREMY AND I TO GET TOGETHER.. HE IS A BIG GUY, AND I NORMALLY DON'T LIKE EM BIG, BUT WHAT IF HE CAN HOLD IT DOWN? I MEAN SERIOUSLY, WHAT IF HE GOTS WHAT IT TAKES TO HANDLE MY OVERLY ACTIVE SEX DRIVE.. THEN I WOULD BE PISSED THAT I WASTED ALL THIS TIME FOOLING AROUND WITH DAVID, WHO WAS, YES I WILL DARE SAY IT, MEDIOCRE IN BED.. BUT I CHALK THAT UP TO HIM NOT HAVING AS MUCH EXPIERIENCE AS SAY...CASEY(THAT WHORE!) I LOVED WHO I THOUGHT DAVID WAS, BUT NOW THAT ITS OVER.. GOTTA MOVE ON.. I THINK I WILL ERASE HIM FROM MY FRIENDS.. NAHHH.. ITS NOT THAT SERIOUS.. PLUS WHEN I PUT UP PICTURES OF MY SUPER SEXINESS, ya know since i have been working out like a lot LATELY, I WANT HIM TO SEE. I WANT HIM TO LUST, I WANT HIM TO WANT ME! BUT THATS ALL FOR NOW. I WONDER IF HE WILL COMMENT ON ANY THING THAT I HAVE SAID..