its been a while...

since i've written anything even remotely good..So.. Basically I will give you an update.. after the wild weekend of which I spent waaaaaay too much money.. I had to stay with the cry baby.. I hardly see her cause I try to stay gone, or be in bed by the time she gets home from work.. But anyways.. had some el sexeoso with BB on the 29th, that was pretty bad by the way, and then I decided that i should try it again, ya know, just to make sure its wasn't me.. so we fooled around again on the 30th, and it again was really awkward and horrible waste of time for me.. I don't know about for him, but I think he senses that soemthing is wrong.. I think its cause I'm getting my rag..cause right before, sometimes all I want to do is cuddle.. Thats why I liked Mr. cuddlepants.. well that, and he had just a beautiful cock.. when it wasn't limp from all the pot he smoked.. but anyways.. so yeah, it was pretty bad.. i didn't even bother trying to fake an orgasm.. BB knew that it wasn't as good as it should have been.. I guess I can't blame the guy for tyring! I mean, he was even ruff with me And a little degrading( which I loooooooved by the way!) But it was still pretty bad.. Yesterday I saw mr. searan.. it was super fun and I looove Brian soo much! That boy is fucking high-lair-i-e-ous!! So We hung out and I didn't even think to call or text BB until I was leaving.. But I resisted the urge to do such things as in call HIM.. Maybey If I can keep myself busy, I won't have to call him ever again.. I do beleive that this is the end of the road for him and I.. But its a more natural one than say us fighting.. But it was cool cause Brians roomy is the red-head that I have had a crush on for like ever!! OMG!! That boy is way to hot to trot! I told brian that I will come to his house just to stare at his roomate on a regular.. Casue I said goddamn!! That Boy is Fucking sexy!! I would do things to him that would make his toes curl and his eyes roll back.. and then kill him with my craziness.. It would be awesome for Brians roomy and I to hook-up.. Just cause, that woud give me an in to the in crowd.. Plus.. I think that he is just as sexy as he wants to be.. By the right toe on NataS's Left foot! I want that boy added to the list I have been in! I'm ready for the change.. Out with the old, In with the new! God I LOOOOOOOOOOOVE Red heads!