Trying to find a way..

Out, is like trying to find the center of a tootsie pop.. Pretty pointless after you realize that you can bite it to get to it faster.. But whatever.. I finally have internet at mi casa, so now I will make it a point to come home on a regular basis.. or rather to update at often as possible.. Anyways.. I just got done doing some serious friendly mcfriendster stuff with BB.. On Tuesday, he called me when I was hanging with nesha at the dealership.. He needed a rid cause his car was at the shop.. Okiess.. Then I decided that if that was what was up, I was gonna just see what something felt like.. I just wanted to know what it would feel like to go from his bed to work the next day.. so I stayed at his house that night, so that I could take him to work in the morning and then pick him up after sos he could get his car.. I guess its a good thing we work like 5 miles away from each other.. but anyways.. It was a wonderful night.. the 1st night.. I picked him up( Clear to the rescue!) and then we went to my casa to get sum clothing, and I took a shower, and then we went to get pizza and redbull, had some great sex and then went to sleep.. It was nice to be held for a little bit.. its all I really wanted..Just to be able to fall asleep afterward.. and not have to drive allllllllll the way back to east mesa( damn near queen creek) from the fucking avenues.. It was cool.. but I think that BB and I have a limit to how much time we can spend together.. and that limit is about a day and a half.. So, living together is completely out of the question.. But it was nice to be able to wake up next to him.. But then I was all extra bajiggity about him for the rest of the day at work.. So i didn't get much work done and then I was all bitchy and shit when I went to go pick him up cause he had been on my mind all day and that took time away from me thinking about myself.. Then he told me that this weekend all he wanted to do was skate.. Okies.. That did it for me.. I always get sucked in to thinking that somehow he has switched his priorities.. but then like a bucket of ice water thrown on me right before I cum, I am made to realize that I don't come close to his obsession with trying to break his face.. I'm thinking its cause it doesn't judge him.. anyways.. So I was going to ask him to be my BF.. But then I realized that that was quite possibly a very stupid thing to do.. Cause It just would never work.. There is not enough time in the day for my to go through all the reaONS WHY IT WOULDN'T.. i'M IN AN INCREDIBLY NEGATIVE MOOD RIGHT NOW.. ALL I CAN THINK OF IS HOW COMPLETELY SILLY I FEEL AROUND THESE PEOPLE.. AND THE FACT THAT I THINK THESE CHICK ARE TRYING TO HOLD ME BACK.. BUT i REFUSE TO BE HELD BACK JUST CAUSE THEY CAN'T OR WONT DO IT.. BB IS A DISTRACTION.. *J* IS A DISTRACTION.. BUT SO IS THE REST OF MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY.. i JUST.. yEAH.. i WILL HAVE TO FINISH MY BROODING LATER.. hAPPY THANKSGIVING..