And time marches on..

So.. Yesterday, after I took care of my business, I walked my Wifey to class, then I knew that I I had to get my sunglasses back from Davids house.. I had planned on doing this anywayz, so I made sure that I brought the skateboard that he got for me last year in the car.. I had to get rid of it. I was never going to ride it again, and looking at the damn thing just made me want to burst into tears. So I gave it back.. Got my sunglasses back, and left really without a second word. He tried to make some sort of conversation.. I'm sure it would have just been, oh, I hate your skin, I hate your hair, and I told you that guys and girls can't be friends.. yadda yadda.. so I drove away.. Plus, I kinda had to go meet up with Pen before he went to work.. I got to Pens' casa with plenty of time to watch 2 episodes of Firefly.. which was AWESOME!! He kept telling me that he cleaned his room, and again with the mentioning about how clean his room was.. which i kept informing him, was really fucking awesome.. I think he wanted me to do dirty things with him again.. but that wasn't gonna happen, I really just wanted to get my movie from him and leave.. I mean watching Firefly was a bonus, but Yeah.. the number has already been erased from my phone.. I'm just not feeling him.. Well I guess theres that and he's leaving in February anywayz.. Plus, I already got what I want from him.. I got to PEE on his FACE! How KICK ASS is that?!?! But whatever, all I want is my I mean Just David. I miss him.. God I'm so screwed in this. I was talking to my Wifey about this, and she says that I should just get over him cause he is a loser, she has always thought that, and will always think that. She says maybe I just have a fetish for retards or something.. I'm starting to wonder if shes right.. But I mean, she liked Casey.. Hell, EVERYONE likes Casey.. But Casey wasn't, isn't for me. But whatever. Now i'm all melancholy and shit. I keep looking at the pictures of David that i'm slowly deleting.. the ones in my phone, the ones on my myspace, the ones on my computer that he doesn't even know I have.. Just the cute sleepy pictures of him.. You know how when your with someone (so technically I wasn't 'with' him)and your out having a great time, you fool around, and they fall asleep, and you just want to preserve the moment forever? Yeah, I've got THOSE pictures.. unfortunately the picts are all I've got will be gone forever like the guy himself. Lame.. Maybe i will keep a couple.. I can't help it! I think he is amazing! I LIKE staring at him.. I think hes cute!! I'll have to put my fave pict of him on my blog so that I can pretty much get rid of all the others, and just stare at that one. But anywayz.. I've been typing this and doing my hair at the same time.. well I'm done now, typing, not with my hair necessarily, i mean, I've done pretty much all I'm gonna do tonight. just enough to put it into a ponytail.. I'm tired, and i need nicotine. I guess, when I have nothing better to do than mope around my house after a boy, i tend to get productive.. Cause now, I won't have to do my hair for at least a month or so. and i even did it short this time. usually, i do my braids looooooooong! I mean down to my ass long. But it just didn't seem like the thing to do Right now. okies, i sent a pict of my hair and a pict of David AND a picture of Pendergrass's ROCKING bod! OMG! That guy has a fucking hot body.. goddess bless it! Amazing that a computer nerd like himself could have such a body and an athlete as David well, doesn't. I mean don't get me wrong, David has a sexy body( well to me anyways) but he is most certainly not cut like Pen.. which is probably why I like him.. I'm not really into muscular guys, I mean YES they are PHENOMENAL to look at.. but come on, I don't want a guy thats prettier to look at naked than I.. It ruins the whole dynamics of the relationship. But anyways, i'm off to gather my nico fix.. holla!