time to come clean

so i wrote mostly the truth about my weekend.. but i just told david that i was in love with him, and he basically told me to get over it. So I'm gonna tell more truth.. I fooled around with david like last tuesday.. I fucked up and had sex with him.. even after making it clear that I wanted to stick to my resolution. He fucked the shit outa me, and it was awesome.. Not nearly as ruff as the sex I had with Pendergrass, yes I fucked Pen that illustrious Saturday night. My GOD! It was fabulous.. well with pen, everything was awesome except for the actual sex part, I will say that David has it, and Pen has it.. I mean, the whole fighting and carnage that went along with Fooling around with Pen was just so sublimely awesome.. I fucked him, then pissed on his face as he came. It was fabulous.. afterward, I told that no offense, but i'd had better. Hell the whole night we were hanging out, I kept wanting to call him Jeremy for some reason.. But anyways.. i fucked him, then sunday, while i was getting my cuddle on with David, I fucked David.. I needed some familiar dick.. It was awesome with David, He made me squirt, and with both of them, I will just take the easy way out and say that its because I was drunk.. however, with Pen, I had looooooong since sobered up..He just made me want to fuck him after the fighting that we had done.. the bruises, the blood, the carnage.. all of that! It was Awesome! Te actual act of sex was very blah.. Though the position he had me in was pretty groovy. I love David. I would do just about anything for him. But since he just doesn't feel the same, and is hell fired and damnation to stop talking to me at all costs, I just don't give a wit right now about being tactful. I didn't need for him to be ruff, I already had my carnage, I just wanted booty from him.. I like sex, alot. Plus i figured, I wasn't really going to tell anybody, and I could give a fuck if Pen says something.. It was all fun and games. He knows this. Plus, he is moving in February anyways.. But reguardless of that.. David doesn't like me. will never like me, HAS never liked me. And I am sad. But surprisingly not enough to actually want to hurt myself, or others. Maybe its cause I got really great sex.. technically it was from 2different people, but put em together, and it was one great sexual adventure. Now, I'm going to smoke, and then repair the damage done to my hair that was done by Pen. I guess I WILL go hang out with him tomorrow. Why not? Even if I just get really shitty sex from him, 4 play will be incredibly inventive and thats really all I'm gonna be getting right now.. Since saving myself for David is out of the question, might as well rock out with my cock out.