a few more words..

so I was thinking about this whole abstinence thing.. and I think its a damn good Idea.. Mainly cause then i can get rid of all the unwanted emotions i have swirling about my head and focus on really important shit, like myself..I figure maybe i will give the odd blow job or hand job or even a little tit-fucking.. but nothing below the waist.. I figure that this is a good idea, cause then i will never be disappointed because i got lame sex.. Its really easy for me to get myself off, and i do such a good job at it, i just cant for see ever letting someone else in my pants ever again.. The really cool thing about it, is that now, it would take a super smooth, super groovy, incredibly masterful guy to get in my pants.. or hell, to even get my shirt off! That means he would have to totally mind fuck me 1st! Which we all know is super hard for most guys to do.. at the same time, it shows his real character.. cause most guys would be completely satisfied with getting blown all the time, instead of having to do work( not like they do such bang up jobs of getting us girls off anyways and thats why we fake it) to get us off.. But a guy that was truly interested in me as a person, would want to know why, i decline to give it up, and then try his damnedest to get me to give it up.. it shows commitment, interest, and above all, a supreme desire to want to be in control.. I figure, that even if i have to give 5 different guys blow jobs, but one guy is at a lost of the why i will only blow him and nothing else, and continues to ask for more, then i have found a guy worthy of giving it up to.. actually the thing is, I'm only going to start with really shitty hand jobs.. They get 3 hand jobs, and if they decide its not worth it, then they aren't worth it.. If they last past that, then we shall see where it goes from there.. actually, i think the sequence will go, hand job, hand job, hand job.. I don't want to see you, then hand job, shirt off then i don't want to see you then hand job, tit fuck, hand job, then i don't want to see you , then hand, tit, a little head, the finish your self off cause I'm to tired, the head, and I'll finish you off with the tit fucking.. we shall see who makes it that far.. I'm sure there will be few(if any) who will.