I fucked up.. and the Jaguars suck!

My team lost yesterday. I'm saddened by this.. It set of a chain of fucked up events for the rest of the night.. I am a loser, not even good enough to blow.. I am a bitch with too much attitude to shake a stick at. I'm a stupid girl, who got caught up in stupid girls antics. I'm the idiot who instrumented my own descent into madness.. now that i'm off work, i'm drinking heavily. in hopes to erase the images of who stupid i was last night from my mind.. It was such a bad idea to go well ANYWHERE last night. and I was SOBER!! I had no excuse! except that I'm a stupid girl that believes the drunken ravings of friends that don't actually care about anything but themselves. It was awkward, and weird and I'm glad that i can say that i've had enough to drink to not care right now. I think that this will be my life.. I will go to work, then come home and drink myself into a coma until I can no longer remember the reason I'm doing it.Hopefully it wont be to much longer that i have to do this shit. Hopefully. I'm sad. And I hate my roomys boyfriend. he sucks the bib one and I hope he dies in a vicious accident that involves him saying something smart to the wron person.