Does it ever end??

If I saw you now? Could I look in your eyes? Do ya think of me? Like I dream of you? Do you wish you were here? Like I wish I was with you? You loved me before, Do you love me now? Does love ever end? When 2 hearts are torn away? or does it go on, and beat strong anyway? You loved me before, Do you love me now? Come back to me right now! Come on, Come on, Come back to me right now! Come on, Come on, Come back to me right now! Come back to me right now! Come on! Come on! Come on! You loved me before, do you love me now? -The breeders..

I have been listening to this song, pretty much since i got home around we will say 4pm.. Such simple lyrics with so much emotion behind them.. If you ever get a chance to listen to this song, just remember, everyone goes through this with at least one person in their lives.. mostly with the opposite sex.. but it could happen with the same also.. it could be a brother, a sister, a parent.. it could even be, a pet.. anything or any one that you have felt close enough to grieve for their loss..the fear of loosing something that you feel this deeply about, is usually not enough to keep even the strongest from getting involved.. but when you do lose it.. it hurts.. a lot.. and it feels as if nothing could ever fill that void again.. it has nothing to do with love, and everything to do with letting what ever it is in to your inner most sanctum , that place that most don't see.. and then all that comfortableness being snatched away in the blink of an eye.. I've had this happen several times.. and every fucking time, I SWEAR i will never let it happen again.. these things, they lull you into a false state of security..and then drop away when you want/need to lean on them the most.. trust is such and issue, that we actually(as human beings)have created games and songs and companies and even national symbols that lull us into that false sense of security.. nothing is promised except for death.. nothing is promised except pain, nothing is more real than hate.. and.. right now i want to cry out in agony at the way my insides are twisting all around.. I can look myself in the eye for just about anything, except to say that i love and cherish a person.. how is that possible? why do I feel so ashamed to let go and just tell them how i feel when i feel it? cause i should be able to do that and hold my head high with out fearing the consequences.. irreguardless of what the person/ thing feels or does..like it makes me less of a person or a weak person to have these feelings.. its gotten so bad with me, that the only time i cry, is when i am in physical pain.. and even then.. it doesn't hurt as much as the whole in my chest where my heart is supposed to be does.. I won't use the same old " torn out of my chest and stomped on " illiteration, cause thats not how it feels.. and i won't say that i feel worse that others or that my pain ins more specific.. i weep on the inside for all of man kind, for we are a doomed nation.. it all started with the thought of evolution..We were doomed from the moment we thought that this all begun with us and that it will end with us.. Now, we have gotten so bad, that we try to ignore our baser instincts, in order for us to survive.. truth is, we are all incredibly bored.. and everything that we have created is for nothing more than our own pleasure.. our own diversion of the main thing.. that we are all as a whole.. insignificant, and that we are all going to die.