well,well

Now.. How did I NOT see the wealth of bullshit coming? IDK.. Ususally I'm really good at being able to get through this.. or see through more than likely.. I always seem to have that one friend.. that one person whose life is frought with nothing but drama.. if its not one thing than its another.. Maybe I'm a bda friend for not wanting to be drawn into it.. or maybe, I think that its her own stupid ass fault for making stupid choices and decisions.. She tells me that the condom broke, like what? last night, and that she needs to go to the store.. I'm all like, for what? all you can do now is douche.. she says that she doesn't have douche.. I figure, well.. instaed of spending money on a preger test that aint gonna tell you shit this soon, vesus something that potentially can nip it in the bud anywayz.. but i think she just wants to be.. so all I will tell her tonite is that if she is, then get an abortion or have it.. thats the only choices that she has.. If she doesn't want to get rid of it, then she will be set, since supposedly the guy is like set for life from some accident that he had.. her monentary problems will pretty much be over, cause she will have a place to stay with him.. DUH!! but she is young and dumb and apprently full of cum( hahahahaha) and n0w its just all worry and cry.. EVERY TIME I go over to her house, There is always something for her to fucking cry about..ALWAYS!! if you ask me, if she is knocked up, then its not the guy that she has been fucking recently.. its her ex-bf.. IDK if that would make her really stupid for not knowing, or incredibly smart for hiding it and choosing a better person to pass it off to.. Fucking brilliant.. Oh yeah.. had some great el sexeoso with BB last night.. I FINALLY got him to agree to a safe word.. which means that we could actually get really fucking ruff in the sack! Hurrah!! Hurrah!! I love it! I really do! Finally!! It means I may actually get fucked the way I want... IWOULD LIKE TO COME INTO WORK THE NEXT DAY LOOKING LIKE i GOT INTO A FIGHT@!! How SICK would that be? OMG!! Clear would be sooooo jealous.. like 'what happend to you?" oh nothing..just had some fantastic sex last nigt! "well whats with the black eyes and the swollen jaw?" I told you.. Freaking AWESOME sex last night! RAPE!!! How super is that.. so after hanging out last night, all I felt like doing was cuddling( GAAAAAAAAGGG!!) and then It was insunuated that I could saty the night.. But I declined that offer.. It was insinuated that I wouldn't even have to meet mom, cause we would be in bed before she got home, and leave before she would even think about waking up.. then, I could have slept in the bed with him and snuggled and ...OMG!! EWWWWWWWW how disgusting do I sound right now.. Now.. I can't believe that i felt that way, but at that time, thats all I wanted to do.. I realize that i have to stop seeing this guy immediately, or else I'm gonna turn into one of those horrible girls who has a boyfriend and crys over stupid shit, and wants to do more than just have sex with him.. which we have all learned when you try to do more than just have sex with them, shit gets complicated.. I love that at this point and time, I have pretty much nothing to worry about except for making sure i get it on a regular basis.. other than tha.. I s=could seriously give a fuck.. I'm even thinking about aquireing another guy to have sex with, JUST so I DONT get to attatched.. I can't help but to like the guy.. hes.. hes.. just so goddamn sexy to me! I don't know why, but thats how I feel.. I can't seem to keep my clothes on when around him. .hell i can't seem to keep my hands off his cock when we are together.. that last 2 times he has fucked me into exhaustion.. I mean, I don't actually get any sleep until i see him, and then, BOOOM!! after we are dun, I just want to lay in bed with him and fall the fuck asleep.. Yes and some times I want to snuggle, but thank Natas.. its usually way to fucking hot for that shit.. Well... I guess its a good thing that he DOESN"T read my blogs, cause all it would do is make is already gynormous head even bigger!! I guess I can be nice to him and tell him that I do really like him and shit.. but that would complicate things.. and All I want is to have fun.. Plus, keeping him at arms lenght is best for the both of us... cause, I've only got like 3yrs left to live..